Many have wondered how to define our existence...many have failed and many continue to do so.I believe individually one can come up with an answer that shall pertain to him/her and only themselves but isn't that enough?Most of the days when i have hot chai at the tapri or whenever i'm alone i ask myself that question.Are we born to live life a certain way.Does fate exist?What about destiny?Why am i here?All these questions hover around in my head like bees swarming all over honey.As i look deeper and deeper into myself i find it harder to conceive an answer.I fall into rabbit holes within myself and i keep on falling with no concern about time or space nor do i feel the want to come out of it.Its my own world filled and built by my ideas,experiences,thoughts,emotions and fantasy.That is my true home.A home out of which i never wish to venture.Hence i thought about forgetting my thirst for the definition of my existence.For if i'm not really thirsty why should i drink water or when it is water i wish to drink why should i be satisfied with a soda?I spend a lot of time pondering about such questions.I believe one should always question one's existence.One may or may not come up with an answer but the journey is worth it.Its questions like these that simply boggle my mind,questions like these that train and evolve my mind,but sadly its also questions like these that makes me late for my classes ........
Heh hee Bloody Questions....
Looking at the world through a camera...Nothing more fascinating and intriguing than that.The world i see through them can be best described as a parallel reality..Visually everything is the same but yet there is something unique,something more,something which one cannot achieve in the real world, the ability to change anything and everything...Manipulating the environment and the emotions around you to create your own world.When you have a camera in your hands you have the power to change,to distort,to forge and to construct everything...When you have a camera in your hands...."You're playing God."
And i like that.......
Welcome to my mind....I shall try to divulge all the thoughts that exist and swirl in my mind through this blog. I am a thinker.....A free thinker bound only by the limitations created by himself.
I think about my life a lot and constantly question my existence.Why do i exist?What purpose would it serve in the complex chain of life?And how do i go about finding this purpose?After all a life without purpose is futile.I constantly move from one flow of thought to another,analyzing and observing everything around me,consuming everything i find interesting and expelling all that which is not.Whenever i talk to my friends i drain from them their thoughts and information and i make it my own,stripping these tidbits to their bare essentials and molding them to my train of thought.And i am indeed lucky to have friends who are genuinely interested in what i seek,even though they aren't as obsessed as i am with such thoughts.I embark on a journey every single day to imbibe all the truths of life,death and existence and i am ashamed to say that i have reached no where,every new day i learn the cover of truth is a very thin one and that makes me one step farther to reach my destination.That is when my id and ego helps me to continue my journey no matter the hardships i face.I enjoy living my life this way, one glorious moment at a time wondering,thinking,observing and consuming....... As usual there are the critical ones who mock what i do and see no purpose for it.After all society trains us to think in its own way and seldom allows one to think for their own.Life is just meant to make money,get married and retire for some.I pity them...I really do.They are not aware of the endless possibilities of life,the fascinating things a human mind can do nor are they aware that they too are capable of acknowledging and absorbing such matters.They exist and just like that they wilt away into the ground carrying with them nothing but memories of a faint,ordinary life. Some say that i have nothing else to do.They ask me what good will it do?To them i reply "I do so to find a meaning to my life,so that one day when i succumb to the eternal chains of sleep,i know that i lived mine the way it was meant to be lived"
